the Thoreau Log.
29 October 1857. Concord, Mass.

Thoreau writes in his journal:

  There are some things of which I cannot at once tell whether I have dreamed them or they are real; as if they were just, perchance, establishing, or else losing, a real basis in my world. This is especially the case in the early morning hours, when there is a gradual transition from dreams to waking thoughts, from illusions to actualities, as from darkness, or perchance moon and star light, to sunlight. Dreams are real, as is the light of the stars and moon, and theirs is said to be a dreamy light . . .

  Though the pleasure of ascending the mountain is largely mixed with awe, my thoughts are purified and sublimed by it, as if I had been translated.

I see that men may be well-mannered or conventionally polite toward men, but skeptical toward God.

Forever in my dream and in my morning thought,
  Eastward a mount ascends;
But when in the sunbeam its hard outline is sought,
  It all dissolves and ends.
The woods that way are gates, the pastures too slope up
  To an unearthly ground;
But when I ask my mates to take the staff and cup,
  It can no more be found.
Perhaps I have no shoes fit for the lofty soil
  Where my thoughts graze,
No properly spun clues, nor well-strained mid-day oil,
  Or must I mend my ways?
It is a promised land which I have not yet earned.
  I have not made beginning
With consecrated hand, nor have I ever learned
  To lay the underpinning.
The mountain sinks by day, as do my lofty thoughts,
  Because I’m not high-minded.
If I could think alway above these hills and warts,
  I should see it, though blinded.
It is a spiral path within the pilgrim’s soul
  Leads to this mountain’s brow;
Commencing at his hearth he climbs up to this goal
  He knows not when nor how.

  We see mankind generally either (from ignorance or avarice) toiling too hard and becoming mere machines in order to acquire wealth . . .

(Journal, 10:139-147)

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